I have never had a good relationship with Mondays. They have been my grumpy days. Lately I have been trying to turn that around and start the week on a positive note. The above picture sums up how far I got with that positive mentality today. Got a bit of work to do on that goal apparently.
Don’t worry I didn’t actually do this. But I can certainly see a ‘little’with an impulsive need for sugar starting a batch of brownies then cuddling up in a blankie and dozing off. I can also imagine a stern Daddy saving the house from going aflame and taking same said ‘little’ over his lap for a firm and ouchie lesson in safety. Yup, that’s where my mind went. 😉
So I got to meet up with Daddy the last week! Yay! It was great to see him. But I had some atonements to make and Daddy followed through on his promises and after a brief shopping trip for a couple of blushy items AND some new bubble blowers and a pretty sundress covered in pineapples and….I digress. We took a little drive deep into the country. It was actually a long drive, it’s so hard to find a little pocket of nowhere nowadays. Daddy likes to spank me out in the open because it makes me fidget and blush like crazy. But, my paranoid nature has me listening for cars and it can distract me from the business at hand. Daddy has ways of keeping his little one distracted during the drive if you know what I mean nudge nudge wink wink say no more. So we finally found out little piece of solitude and Daddy wasted no time in baring my bottom and having me start thinking of what I had done (or didn’t do) and what was to come as he set things up. My sin as I have mentioned being my time management (missed journal posts) and lack of communication. Basically Daddy is pretty understanding, he realizes life gets busy and I may not always get time to post, but all he asks is I communicate and tell him I am busy and don’t have time to post or may be late. I have a tendency to feel bad and do the ostrich head in the sand method and hope he doesn’t notice. So the spanking was more for my lack of open communication. So when Daddy finished setting up we had a little chat then he promptly and completely spanked my bottom with his hand and two implements. The nasty hairbrush followed by the belt. I was a blubbering mess after the hairbrush, the belt felt like fire and for a couple of strokes that hit those sensitive sweet spots I actually thought I would spontaneously combust and actually die. In no way would I ever mistake the belt as an item for play. There is nothing fun or playful about it. And the residual effect? This little girl was sitting gingerly or days after. I promised to do better and communicate more and to solve world hunger and a number of other things. Then it was over. I survived and Daddy gave me cuddles and kisses and motioned up my abused and welted bottom and proceeded to make his little one feel better in his wicked Daddy ways. But boy will I remember to avoid the belt and remember this rule.
So it sounds like I do get to see Daddy later this week. Yay! I have to remember the yay part cause I am excited to see him. But he has given me some stuff to think and dread about ’cause…well my bottom has a bit of a reckoning to face. When faced with the opportunity to report any demerits as it were, I was a good little girl and was up front with Daddy, my poor bottom has paid the price for NOT being forthright, Daddy always seems to known anyway and then it’s very hard to sit for a while. So I admitted that my schedule got busy and I wasn’t always the most punctual with my weekly journal entries. Problem with that little revelation…it’s a repeat offence. That is never good news for my bottom. Despite that it seems to be my hardest rule to keep and Daddy’s take is that the last reminder just wasn’t memorable enough. So he has given me the information that I have a very nasty session with the belt (I absolutely hate the belt, nothing fun or playful about it). And I get to spend the preamble before his visit stewing over my I upcoming punishment. Stew and worry then stew some more. I know Daddy’s right and I know I want to be held accountable, I just wish that I hadn’t earned myself a punishment every time we meet. Sigh, maybe if we could get together more often I’d be able to stay out of trouble during the in between and we could spend more time with the funishment type spanking. I have to admit I look forward to a red bottom when we meet just not a tanned hide. What is this poor little Spanko to do?
So….I have really been feeling the long distance in the long distance relationship Daddy and I share lately. Busy schedules, missed opportunities to meet, and hurried and harried messaging to fill in the long blanks in between. My logical big gets it, my ‘little’ is pretty darn pouty. Little doubts creep in like is Daddy just getting bored, are our schedules ever gonna sync, you know where the mind can wander. For my part, I fall into the old habit of clamming up. So I of course haven’t really expressed my insecurities to Daddy. I don’t want to be a bother. I think my biggest problem at the moment is lack of tangible Daddy. I can be a lot more natural and spontaneous when I meet with Daddy in the flesh. Well it looks like it might finally be happening in the next coming week or so. I have fingers and toes and everything else that can crossed crossed! I know I will probably spend some time over Daddy’s knee getting my bottom paddled. But I think I am gonna talk him into buying his little girl ice cream after. Daddy has also mentioned that my little bummy hole may need some Daddy attention, I can’t wait to show him my progress with my training. I have been extra diligent since I found out about his upcoming visit. Fingers crossed!!!!!!
I identify with this picture. When Daddy spanks me it is almost always a guarantee that I will spend some time OTK. It is very much instinctual that within a few smacks that I start kicking and wriggling and bucking. I grab Daddy’s leg and try to push myself up or pull myself off. I really don’t know how Daddy can concentrate because I definitely make myself a moving target.